19.12.05

weekenders on our own

just a perfect day,
you made me forget myself.
i thought i was someone else,
someone good.
- lou reed

one should never confuse intimacy with love. i always confuse the two and it fucks me up bad. listening to transformer last night, i had a moment of clarity. i'm trying to hold on to it. it's over now. she's just another - like every other (tangerine) in the world. my heart is closed to her forever.

she loves me. she loves me not. this is supposed to be a game? how sadistic we are as children.

1 comment:

lookingfortrouble said...

What's that they say in all those songs? Love is a game you play.

And children are cruel. Because they can't comprehend, or sometimes even enjoy, the effects of what they do on others.