throw myself into work in order to justify my existence. staying at work late to avoid the emptiness at home. taking on other people's suffering so i can feel something. people watching in order to feel part of the whole. stuffing my face to fill the bottomless hole in my soul.
sometimes it works.
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8.5.12
study days
i had a couple of study days this week, one in brisbane and one in melbourne. a mixed bag of good and not-so-good presentations but overall i learnt a little about palliative care and communication skills and a lot about the importance of being exposed to new things.
i find that so much of my evenings after work these days involve slumping on the couch, eating bad food and watching bad tv, lamenting about my lack of energy. but the two study days made me realise that doing new things, being in a different place, listening to and thinking about new ideas fill me with energy. rather than just reflecting on past events, i actually start making new plans in my mind. sure most of these plans don't translate to action - but at least for a little while i feel hopeful and positive!
i really must do it more!
i find that so much of my evenings after work these days involve slumping on the couch, eating bad food and watching bad tv, lamenting about my lack of energy. but the two study days made me realise that doing new things, being in a different place, listening to and thinking about new ideas fill me with energy. rather than just reflecting on past events, i actually start making new plans in my mind. sure most of these plans don't translate to action - but at least for a little while i feel hopeful and positive!
i really must do it more!
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