the rat revisited

went the the 'rat the last few days for specials week and it was a very different experience from last time. the aura that seemed to surround the place is now gone. the reality of being in a town away from your friends struck home those couple of nights there. it must be difficult to come home and have no one physically there to talk to. i like being alone, but its always nice to have someone you are comfortable with in the next room. i think i'll gone crazy if i had to spend a year out there and there was no one that i got along with amongst the interns there. but perhaps i just don't like the idea of living alone. as much of a hassle it is to have a housemate, there is something safe about having someone else around, like a doona for your mind.