all over red rover

this is the end
my beautiful friend
this is the end
my only friend, the end

of our elaborate plans, the end
of everything that stands, the end
no safety or surprise, the end
i'll never look into your eyes again

it hurts to set you free
but you'll never follow me
the end of laughter and soft lies
the end of nights we tried to die
- the doors

six years of pleasure and pain drew to a close in thirty-six hours of hypomanic frenzy. bedford's for seven hours. poker and games at pete and jim's until five-thirty am. four hours sleep before fifty balls at the driving range. the rainbow-coloured blur of faces and dresses at mallory-weiss. sorry sis i didn't get your missed call until 12:30am. i must've fallen asleep... excessive amounts of alcohol can do that to you. which songs did you sing?

it's over. soon we will wander down new trails and tackle new challenges. but that time is not yet. now is the time for rest.