OBGYN: spectator sport

four weeks into obstetrics and gynaecology and i think i am ready to move on. there is so much hope and despair around pregnancies. i am just a spectator and even then sometimes it seems like its too much and i will implode from all these emotions. joy and anxiety, relief and disbelief, fear and resignation. it will be gynaecology next week and i look forward to it. here at last i may find acceptance. simple, pure, logical. death comes to all. it may be a friend in the end. one may grow fond of it, but should never strive for it.