angels all around

i've been in bad mood since last night. once again that fleeting moment of mania followed inevitably by depression. oh how i feel sick in the bottom of stomach and i just want to throw up. actually went to clinic this afternoon and it was alright, but then i sank again. had a long chat with lou on msn and i cant believe how much i revealed about what i was feeling about myself and the world around me. i can't remember the last time i told someone so much, and lou is probably the last person i expected to want to listen to the kind of bullshit that i said. but, she cheered me up for a bit. sometimes the people you find around you amaze you, even when you think you have them pigeonholed. i guess i just assume too much.